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In
Love With Monica Lewinsky
June 25, 2004
R. D. Kushner
I feel bad for Monica
Lewinsky. I used to think that the spotlight had been tragically thrown upon
her quiet little life by no fault of her own. I imagined that she had involuntarily
succumbed to Bill Clinton’s charisma and his influential position in
the world. I felt that she may even have been taken advantage of – a
young impressionable girl caught like a lamb in a lustful world of politics
and power. But today I changed my mind.
In response to the release
of President Clinton’s memoirs, Miss Lewinsky offered the public a unique
insight into her particularly Monica-centric world. To begin with, it is a
testament to her continued irrational infatuation with this married man that
she has thoroughly perused the entire 900 page book just days after its release,
in order to find the pertinent sections which she hoped would extol her virtues
as a bureaucratic courtier.
Having been unsatisfied
with his version of events past [and although she already had her opportunity
to tell her side of the story in her own book published almost five years
ago] she decidedly took the spotlight away from President Clinton to shine
it voluntarily into the deep recesses of her “tragic” life. The
tragedy is how she has continued to perpetuate her aura of limited liability
while also indulging in the effervescence of her new stardom. This is best
illuminated by admiring the lengths to which she has gone to willingly and
desperately seek attention even at the cost of her own already tattered reputation.
It also suggests a pattern of self-indulgence that is on par with that of
her now generally unabashed partner in salacious pleasures, Clinton himself;
and it reveals a level of maniacal self-involvement that is completely out
of touch with reality.
Monica wants to have
been loved by former President Clinton; she can’t imagine that their
tryst together was simply a mechanical sexual act for immediate and temporary
gratification. She feels betrayed that, in spite of whatever he may have told
her in the passion of the moment [have you heard the song “Paradise
by the Dashboard Light,” by Meatloaf?], he was never really in love
with her. And in order to make herself feel better about her decision to save
a semen-stained dress for posterity’s sake, she jumps into the limelight
today to publicly indulge a juvenile fantasy about the President being in
love with her – thus becoming a victim of her own wishful thinking.
Bill Clinton has made abundantly clear that he was not in love with Miss Lewinsky
at the time of their affair; and rather than accept this she continues to
portray herself as a bereft victim of amorous deceit – and in doing
so, she reveals the person who is truly in love with Monica Lewinsky: Monica
Lewinsky.
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